Curve Ball

Isn't life peculiar, it is just like that Phish song, Birds of a Feather..."It's easy sometimes when you just coast along, but like it or not something always seems to go wrong." This was so completely true for me today and I won't even get into it, but life through me a few curve balls and I have to say thank gosh lately I have been making a conscious effort not to allow my emotions to control my behavior. I have to surrender to my emotions, because they will ultimately come and go without my control however I can decide how I will react and behave in situations. If one can take the time to be present in the moment and take a deep breath, and in that moment in time be aware of your self one can live a much more fulfilling life. Life throws curve balls not to upset you, but to challenge you and see what you have learned. You see it is one thing to read a book or watch a documentary, but to actually apply the lessons to life, then friend we have started to put the puzzle together. Another part of that song that I must comment on:

Like whippets they dance in a curly-queue dance
Of pulses and ringing and campfire chants
Of ritual drumming although at first glance
You thought you could run but you wont take a chance

Its not an experience if they cant bring someone along
They hang on emotions they bottle inside
They peck at the ground
And strut out of stride

These next three lines are so solid, they bring me to my favorite times with friends, that feeling I sometimes forget. But the fourth line and the next verse talk about something else in my interpretation. This talks about facing fear and thinking you can overcome this fear, but just won't leap out and take that chance. Then it goes on to mention experiences and that line is so true, it is such a bonding thing to go through the moment with another individual. This brings up a recent experience that I had. I will preface this by saying I am one of the most fortunate individuals on this planet because I have found a soul sister..a real, true best friend. So this past weekend we went to San Diego and saw WideSpreadPanic. To be honest the show wasn't event that dope, it was our quality time outside of the immediate venue area off on this side spot surrounded by rocks, streams and a few randoms. We were in our own world discussing our goals and visions of the future. IT was a sick moment. Then we saw a golf cart parked on the side of the casino with the key in the ingnition. Cary (Our solid homey from Portland, which I will post a pic of soon, total WSP head!), Shan, and I get in the cart and high tail it up a curb laughing hysterically. Ryan, her boyfriend..being the solid homey he is drove us back to the Solamar where we slammed some shots at the local pub!
Any way to finish this post I will comment on the last lines of that verse by saying when emotions are bottled up inside fear is always at the root and until we can separate these fears one by one (dividing to conquer) we will then be on our way to clearing the cobwebs to "true self". I am so stoked I found this whole blogger deal...it is all new to me, but very fulfilling. Good Night!